| Farewell |
[11 May 2003|11:48pm] |
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Well its my last nite here in Grace and my last nite as a college freshman. Tomorrow I'm gonna take my last final and peace out. Instead of actually making this livejournal a JOURNAL i think ill just do what Jes is doing and use it to keep people updated. I want to thank everyone for one of the most amazing times in my life. I have honestly changed more than I ever have before and all of the people I have met here are totally unreal. All of my friends at UOP are so genuine, so cool, so REAL. And then theres the whole school thing, that has been off the hook too. I never thought in my wildest dreams that I would be able to truly grasp an intelligible concept of the historical world and the modern world-and enjoy it. And this summer is gonna be tight too-taking Chinese at USC isnt gonna be easy but I am ready for a challenge and I truly am yearning to master a new and difficult language. I cant even fathom speaking Chinese tho, it always seemed so far away, almost untouchable. Maybe thats the reason why I never had a yearning to learn anything about the world until I actually took the road less traveled. Anyways what I am trying to say is that I never thought I could learn anything about Asia or China or Africa or South America because it all seemed so far and not really worth the time. College is so great. Thanks to everyone again for everything that you have taught me and inspired me to do. I may not be online much this summer cause my mom has dial-up but I will try to post something every so often. Thanks again for all the great memories. Honestly, i think all of you KICK ASS in your own way.
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[01 May 2003|02:46am] |
oh man i am so out of it. 10 shots and so much other stuff. this nite was crazy but i dont feel that drunk. i started at like 730 and i was doing shit till like an hour. coming down now and im listening to john lennon. never felt so depressed in my life.
"let it be"
holy crap man. fucking brilliant. the rolling melodies and aweseome guitar breaks. the power of his lyrics, the tempo of his voice, the rythym of the drums. its all so wonderful. if only it could be like this forever.
and when the nite is crowded, there is still a light that shines on me
i wake up to the sound of music, mother mary comes to me speaking words of wisdom
come to me
let it be
let it be
let it be
oh there will be an answer.
fucking brilliant wankstas.
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| i thought the only lonely place was on the moon |
[29 Apr 2003|11:53pm] |
Trust me, it's paradise. This is where the hungry come to feed. From mine it's a generation that's circles the globe and searches something we haven't tried before. So never refuse an invitation, never resist the unfamiliar, never fail to be polite and never outstay the welcome. Just keep your mind and suck in the experience. And if it hurts, it's probably worth it.
-Richard from The Beach
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| hoo ray |
[29 Apr 2003|02:13am] |
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[29 Apr 2003|12:56am] |
ok i had to update.
im pulling an all-nighter on this god forsaken perspectives historiographical paper on shaka zulu which isnt supposed to be hard at all but its just pissing me off and im way distracted tonite cause im totally wired from my caramel macchiato (so glad we have starbucks now at school) anyways
my sister went to hawaii tonite, my dad flew off to germany yesterday and my mom is in palm springs for the week. what the fuck is up with that shit man. i get stuck here with school and all this crap. family has got to start spreading the love.
soooo...
i went on to my friend jessica's (from home who goes to cal-poly) online diary which totally inspired me to write like a diary in this thing and i found out a few things:
this girl, crystal gentry who i knew in high school is now a porn star and there are like naked porn shots of her on the web, maybe ill put the link up later. i dont know i feel kinda weird about it.
my community college at home, COC is the college that produces the 2nd most porn stars in America, kinda fucked up.
yea ok im totally wired and listening to crazy music and everyone on my floor is lit tonite and the girl next door is fucking and the bed is creaking. ugh. hahaha. i love school though. 2 weeks left! ay yi yi
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[26 Apr 2003|08:56pm] |
went to the theta formal last nite. had about 9 shots and got really really smashed before 7 PM. hahaha. its weird being drunk while it is still light outside. kinda freaky and funny at the same time. theta formal was fun. lots of dancing and chips. came home and crashed by 1. feed the dog at lauries house and caught the bus to go see "the producers" in san fran with kirsten and jes. had a fuckin blast. jason alexander and martin short played the two leads and i laughed for so long. ate at max's and had an awesome dinner. it was a total tits and ass day too-on the bus on the way there we watched "road trip" there was tits and ass all over the producers and relaxed to "mallrats" on the way back.
"understanding only comes after confrontation"-mallrats
"even though we are sitting down, we are giving you a standing ovation Ulla."-the producers.
kinda bummed i didnt make it to "bowling for columbine" at the scummit but the trip today was well worth it. dont know about tonite, i have so much work to do before next week starts i might actually just stay in and stay sober. gotta set those priorities. called my mom today for the first time in a week and had absolutley nothing to say whatsoever. im finally growing apart from the fam. (for the time being) which is exactly what i need-to get the fuck away from the same plane of existence as my parents. now im bored.
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[23 Apr 2003|12:13am] |
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oh btw i love southwest airlines they gave me like 10 bags of peanuts cause they didnt want to keep them. i dont even like the peanuts but i gave them to the hawaiians down the hall and it was all good.
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[23 Apr 2003|12:03am] |
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thank you thank you thank you erin for letting me borrow your cds to burn. ahh i didnt realize how much i missed jack johnson until i started listening to the boy again. damn hes the shit. so mom sent me some blank cds and i need to hurry up and burn as many cds as possible before school is out so i dont go crazy this summer without kazaa or direct connect. i felt really sick tonite. it was awful; after work i went to my room and just passed out and then i woke up and coughed real bad and the room was spinning and i started freaking out so i got some pizza from the summit and almost didnt make it up the stairs, i didnt even eat all the pizza tho cause i felt like my pancreas was gonna get coughed up so i peaced out and slept it off. kinda funky. i like that word, funky. more things in the life i lead should become funky. ahh this weekend is INSANE> cant really write about cause its dirty and shit but i had a sweet time, thanks to some of my crew back home. i watched "empire of the sun" (one of my favorite movies of all time-if you havent seen it ya dont know what your missin) and "life as a house" with felicia<pretty sad chic flick. saw my grandma on easter and the first thing she said to me(before she even embraced me mind you) was "You like pale" it was kinda depressing then she told me that they are sending her away to louisiana to die. shes gonna live with my dads bro and im gonna fly out on labor day weekend. its kinda shitty. like she is this legacy in l.a. and now her legacy is coming to a close. sad times. oh well, i dont see her that much now maybe this will give me a greater effort to see her more. hahahaha..."sex on the beach" is my new fave song. so random and so fun to sing with. this is pointless and im tired. happy birthday megan.
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[22 Apr 2003|04:18pm] |
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so enough with all the bullshit, i am fucking happy and content. there is so much for me here; i should be excited with all that i can benefit from. fuck it. i just gave $15 to a charity for catholics in africa. im such a loser. cat power is amazing. try to download a few of her songs if you can. a good friend from home gave me her cd and it is fucking tight.
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[22 Apr 2003|04:09pm] |
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3 weeks from now i will be completley done with my freshman year of college. when i look back on it i am contrasted with both positive and negative thoughts. i have learned so much-about the world and myself. there is no other place but in academia where i could have felt such strong emotions about the world and other people. i dont really know if i have had a good time this year. it has been very different from anything i have ever experienced before but i dont know if i have really enjoyed it or if i just keep telling myself that i like the life i lead herand i truly enjoy the fortunes that have been presented to me. gotta work on shaka zulu now real quick with the nice lady ok bye
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[22 Apr 2003|11:05am] |
summer air reminds me of
all the seasons of her love
and what it was like
when we were together
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[18 Apr 2003|11:21am] |
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got tipsy with girls and shmirnoff ice last nite. hahaha. keri wouldnt take shots so i had to down her bacardi for her. i love that girl, i love all girls really. im all packed and ready to go basically except i have to put a teacup in between my north face and boxers so it wont smash. i got a producers ticket for next weekend with the school, pretty stoked about that. met a cool chic from san diego and played mini pool with her in the healthy living dorm last nite. that was random. im gonna peace out cause im leaving on a jet plane...have a good weekend, i hope the waves are high, the sun is shining and there is some sax on the beach.
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[17 Apr 2003|11:16am] |
well my cousin in texas is getting married and ive talked to her like every day now and she really has helped me get out of my rut about no china. i dont really want to catch SARS anyways, i dont think its possible but its better to be safe than sorry i suppose, although thats not how i want to live my life. i WANT to go to china and live on the thrill that i COULD get SARS. it sounds fucked up but why live in such a sheltered world with invasive barriers all around. whatever. so USC this summer; im not looking forward to the commute every day but i do have fond thoughts of learning chinese. ker bear made me cds and i cant stop listening to them, especially "slob on my knob" and "sex on the beach" ahhhh! it just started drizzling! how can it be 80 degrees, hot and sunny in new york and boston and 60 here with thick clouds and the rain! AHHH! i just had a great thought, this summer i will do all my hw at the beach, usc is like 15 mins from the sand and there i will master the chinese language, turn brown and find a foxy summer fling. The beach is a great place i tell ya. i cant wait for summer to come and i can have some fun. warped tour, 50 cent, the producers, dave matthews, coldplay, maybe loolapalooza. well heres a cool quote that i used in my speech about saving the national parks yesterday-the TA said i rocked and i should do radio! thats the first nice thing educator has told me this year! it was nice. anyways heres the quote that i really liked and i used:
"It is not necessarily those lands which are the most fertile or most favored climate that seem to me the happiest, but those in which a long stoke of adaptation between man and his environment has brought out the best qualities of both."
-T.S. Eliot THE WASTE LAND
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| Bibbidy Boppidy Boo |
[15 Apr 2003|08:13pm] |
I only put this song up for Ruth to see.....you make me fahclempt all over.
"California"
We've been on the run
Driving in the sun
Looking out for #1
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Hustlers grab your guns
Your shadow weighs a ton
Driving down the 101
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California!
Here we come!
On the stereo
Listen as we go
Nothing's gonna stop me now
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Pedal to the floor
Thinkin' of the roar
Gotta get us to the show
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California!
Here we come!
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[15 Apr 2003|11:01am] |
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HA! i finished my speech. tally ho. kiki next door invited me to box with her today. i think im gonna do that. they boxing really gets out your aggression and all that shit thats built up inside you, sounds kinda meditative. im still trying to find a way to the airport on friday. ahhhhh. i love flying home but i hate trying to find a way to the airport. if you or anyone you know is going to SAC on friday, lemme know PLEASE. Ah, my sister called me and bought us tickets to coldplay at the end of May at the Hollywood Bowl-should be fun. went to the library for like 4 hours last nite, i swear there are people there that just LIVE at the library, every time i go in there they are just chillin doing something. im gonna take care of a dog next weeekend! muah ha ha. for the housesitting lady. dogs are great. also very meditative. i cant wait till this weekend. im gonna eat so much food and then lay out in my in laws backyard for like 5 hours slowly digesting more food and then im gonna eat some more and then im gonna hang out and then when i hang out im gonna eat again and again and then im gonna sleep but before i sleep im gonna eat a snack. i like eat.
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[12 Apr 2003|03:38pm] |
holy crap. i usually dont write like updates on my life in here or anything but last nite was probably one of the weirdest most fucked up and crappiest 12 hours of my college year so far.
so.........
at 9 keri started feeling sick and with the force of her mother i took her to the ER at St Josephs off of harding with erin and katy
after 3 hours of reading watching late nite nbc entertaining ourselves with the fuckheads from stockton in the ER and playing many games of twenty questions and truth truth lie lie....
keri was finally taken in with erin at her side
5 hours later, 50 pages of erins book done, 3 episodes of leno and 20 crying babies and the long awaited arrival of greg and kyle with frequent walks and bathroom trips
keri left the hospital
iv, catscan and pelvic exam revealed she has bursting cysts and the beginnings of appendicitis.
so.......
katy and i walked to my car and when i opened the door i noticed all this shit from my console on my seat and i realized my car had been broken into
i was pissed
custom stereo completley gone
back quarter window smashed
at least 55 cds taken
fancy swiss army knife gone
all sunglasses taken
and even some pictures from friends at home were missing
BUT they left my altoids!
and my battery was still there and the car worked so at least i had it.
i was still very very upset. the only person i wanted to talk to was my best friend.
anyways 3 hours of sleep later i woke up at 8 to go horseback riding which was canceled cause of the rain.
so i called the folks and insurance and the parking lot where the car was stolen is under video surveillance so thats cool.
but im still pretty peeved. its just not my part of the week i guess.
and now im going to go eat samples at costco and have some jamba juice with jarek and thats cool so whatever.
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[11 Apr 2003|11:01am] |
More than Words by Extreme
I miss home, i really really do, and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that
Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
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| i hope you had the time of your life |
[10 Apr 2003|01:42am] |
So one of my friends from home had all this stuff on her away message of things to remember and i thought i should type in some stuff before i forget most of my freshman year here.
"Things to remember"
Skydiving
"California" by Phantom Planet
Tepa
Ro-Sa at the summit
the "small bear" in our tent at Yosemite
getting Erin drunk for the first time at a room party
running away with Akil's longboard
Dave Wong's anywhere anytime but mostly in Yuppie Brookside
Wonton Shoop!
Amanda stealing firewood
the weird bump on my foot-what the fuck is that?
Greg "finishing off" Jacob in his sleep
Jack Daniels up my nose!
the weird guy in a nurse's outfit with a "migraine" on Halloween weekend
running out of gas and having to leave my car at S-mart; driving back to school with Sayil and townies
the first nite i saw Keri drunk
climbing the roof of the gym, or any gym for that matter
Miracle Mile with Suz
Vintage stores and spending a whole day with Keri to find the perfect futon
getting trashed off our ass. nuff said
L.A. and my house. Yosemite. San Fran. Half Moon Bay. Homewood @ Tahoe. Northstar.
Jack Johnson and Greg's car accident. WTF?
"Justin, your mommy is waiting for you"
Genghis Khan with Laurel......ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
Wrong direction on every one way street possible in the city
Anti-war marches in San Fran
The Rolling Stones in San Jose
White water rafting!
Sum 41 and all female mosh pits at UC-Davis
Saves the Day and Dashboard-good times good times
Vagina Monologues
Today i went to Lodi and saw Jimboy's Mexican Fiesta
Berkeley
Erins house and meeting her fam and friends
"Seriously"-Marisa
Spoons, not to get mixed up with "Spooning"
walking through Stockton buzzed with so much beer and getting attacked by high schoolers with silly string before finally getting picked up by the dike mobile
taking pictures of leaves and the campus;once in the fall and once in the spring
waking up with a face painting
Nalgene bottles
SMART WATER!!!!!!
the first time i saw the city with Amanda and Kirsten and Jeff and Angie and some girl
Arco Arena="Mecca"
Spring Break skiing in WA
trying to buy any kind of alcohol at any place whatsover anywhere here
FINCH
getting written up the first week of school for being trashed with no pants on
breakfasts in Nevada
Annettes witch laugh-"ooh shes cute"
Melissas crazy dancing and her accent-Pop-
the possum outside my window at 2 AM
i cant think of anything else, its late. thanks for all the memories. add more if you wish.
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[09 Apr 2003|11:55pm] |
AH HA! akil says there is an intramural hockey team.
BINGO.
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